Almost......

I would like to share a story of a friend of mine..
See...this friend of mine,his love one was away from him..really far away..and he really love her.. well i can really tell how much my friend love this girl..if you look at his eyes when he told me this story..he almost cry..(but,being a man and all that macho-ism..he pretend that its nothing)
but its no problem..dude, never lost your cool on me... :P
Before we meet up, he go to the girl house to fetch something that need to be send tomorrow to her..
to make thing short.. on his way to the girl house.. they were texting each other.. The story is about what they text... so it begin...well, i rephrase the word..so it wont offended anyone.. :)


His Girlfriend : Honey, reach my place yet?
My Friend : On my way..why?
His Girlfriend: Nothing,just asking..is it wrong to ask?
My Friend : Nope, just thought Dear would like to ask for something.
His Girlfriend : Did you call my mum yet? what did my mum say?
My Friend : Yup, i did.. ur mum not at home but your lil sis at home.. dear, guess wht.. i saw the sunset.. it nice. its look red. :)
His Girlfriend : Really? Honey let go watch sunset at JP.. hehehe
(JP= the place where they use to go to watch sunset )
My Friend : Sure Dear, where would you wait?
His Girlfriend : Since you coming to my place, i just wait Honey here.. :)
My Friend : ok, almost there dear..
His Girlfriend : Ok Honey, im outside the door waiting for you..
then my friend reach his girlfriend house and meet up with her lil sister..fetch the thing..and leave..
My Friend: dear, im sitting outside.. come lets go :)
His Girlfriend : ..... :)

You can tell how much my friend miss his beloved girl.. they even make believe that they still around like before.. well, I ALMOST cry when my friend told me this.. it really touches me in so many way.. :) it remind me of an old English saying....'Distance make the heart grow fonder'..
so tht it..just a simple story from a friend of mine that ALMOST made me cry.. i said almost..ok!!

oh,,kakak!! baca dulu ni..

Oh kakak..hahaa..kuyak kan..tiba2 datang tu urang..hahaha..mcm ayah cakap,pakai jin dorg nie!!(my lovely dad being synical) drama melayu betul dorg nie kan..hahaha..oh! kakak..siok2 mengumpat tiba2 tanpa RSVP menggangu hari ahad keluarga kita yang aman..hahaha,,oH! kakak..best lagi tingu halimah jongang dari dengar cerita dorg..!! hahaaa..oh!! kakak ko tau kah ibu smpi mcm belum mandi balik bah dengar cerita dorg..hahahaaa...owh kakak..kuyak di hari minggu!!!

For all the time I had.. I'll make the best of it!!

Life is an adventure! where it lead no nobody knows,like forest gump mum's use to say.. 'Life is like a box of chocolate.. you never know what you had..until you ate it'
well for some reason..or maybe it just me being such a lame sensitive fag, i left my heart some where else..Longing to be there again,(not alone..i wont survive if im all alone..so BAby..im dragging you along ",) to share a strong scent of together..yup, i sound seriously lame,mushy-wushy,and depress... Depress?? nah..just being tangled up along with so called feeling..
i Think the place had drugged us..we've created such ridiculous,unthoughtful,terribly misguided illusion of being whole there..but the freaking funny thing is the illusion we made,had come first on my wish list..well even if God forbid me to dream so.. i pray so He will let me..
a day spent beyond the ordinary!!..err..maybe for some,it just another a day ..wht the big deal? fuck to that.. it was my day..it was our time so fuck up..shut up..damn darn listen..im shouting out loud..Im In Love..There nothing other can do to stop me from that..
My time is shortened day by day, i do realize that.. but for all the time i have, I'll make the best of it!!

WHAT I MISSED..

i MiSS to smell the scent of tht shampoo you use to wear.. i miss that non-stop laughter u made till tears came out from you eyes, i miss the way you laugh when i tell a joke..i miss the way you say that im crazy!! like you really meant it..i miss the way you cry when you watch sad movie.. i miss to watch the sea with you..but we probably would get into a fight..i miss the way i talk you through when you mad at me, i miss the way you hug me and pull away your face,becasue you dont want me to see you cry.. i miss the way i rub the tears from your eyes..i miss to sneak out.. just to be with you. i miss the those color you love to wear..its bright..kinda freak me out..but still i missed it more..i miss to tell you i love you..then you would say u dont love me..but as i wanted to go you always hold my hand tight..i miss to talk on the phone with you..well we probably will talk about nothing at all..but i stil miss tht..i miss the way ur voice goes when u just wake up..and said to me you still need to sleep.. i miss you smile..it make you lips look smaller.. for all of it, i just realize i miss damn darn that much..

DEMON IN A BEAUTY!!

look can be deceiving..i found that its quit true..sometime it even made you felt left alone in one tight space,felt betrayed!! hanging on one fucking string that would loosen up and let you die on the spot..'caught in the middle..life is maze and love is a riddle..' pounded at chest!! the pain is like no remorse..a wound that never heal even in front a great wizard or sorcery..that the truth!! and truth can be more devastating than evil itself..with that i conclude..-fuck up!! Middle finger in the air-

TRUST ISSUE !!

trust!! a mutual certification on both parties..well that was i thought as it was!! but we live in a question..as my english teacher said..'WH Question'..the biggest question that always been ask would be WHY? WHY? WHY?.. why does this,why does that,.. In fact by questioning that one are judging what around..why judge? because human tend to live in doubt..? why i ask? why i even bother to tell? see..there a 'why' there.. oh,im always fascinated by this question..one thing for sure whenever one ask why? there a trust issue involve.. true or not? Till the end of this fucking freaking world stand i guess this question is a perfect matter arise that we will be asking..the tendency to know more..mean that we are not believing what around..why need to know more? why cant just let the time had all the answer?

Remember when you just a little kid and mum use to say..'dont talk to stranger'.. well why? is it all stranger are bad? how if that one stranger are an angel? my freaking point is, we are nurture to live in doubt..doubt that,doubt this..the question that barricade us!! 'for all the things inadequate well nobody will be gratified,mixed thought of greed normality,massacres of the unfortunate..arousing hatred,resenful features!!! -Middle finger in the air- done!!